Losing what's most important in life.

I haven't posted anything recently, but I've recently was on a trip. I spent the last half a week in Boise watching the NCAA tournament first and second rounds. I was with my father, and 2 uncles. During the whole weekend, I was with several 50 and older men. The days were spent, making calls to wives every three hours, but they didn't seem to talk about anything. There were times at the games, that some comments were made about cheerleaders. Binoculars were pulled and used. The raw lust for girls that were 30 plus years younger than they were, was disguised under the musings of "appreciating their beauty". The whole weekend kind of sickened me, in many ways. It was at this point that I discovered something very un-nerving. That I am losing what humanity that I have left in me.

Do you appreciate her as human being?

After many of the school shootings that occurred in the late 90's and early 00's, a young woman proclaimed that she didn't understand why or how people could do such a thing. I tried to inform her that in her Gap buying, talking on a her cell phone about the latest gossip, and American Idol watching life; utterly sickened them to the point that they couldn't take it anymore. She gasped, and I knew the notion was still wasted on her. It was something that she won't ever understand.
These were the men that raised most of my generation, and here they were 50+ and hanging on every word their wives said but at the same time were some of the most ignorant people I've ever seen. Every comment that spewed out of their mouths was one of bigotry and hatred, and how they were slighted. Is this what awaits me for old age? Is this how all older people are? How many other people see this?
After all was said and done, I had fun watching the games. However, much of what I saw displayed sickened me. This left me thinking all weekend, is this what awaits me if I progress to what humanity says is necessary? I then I remember, it's about what humanity does that is so unexpected that I like it so much. Such small things like a friend telling me that he's gonna have some kids. Seeing people sacrifice, what little they have to help others. I myself may not have much humanity left in me, but maybe that's what left for me. To chronicle the good things that humanity does. I still recognize that at least. I guess that's the lesson to be learned, don't lose sight of the things that make humanity great, it's nature.